2020 comes to an end...finally.
I won't pretend that this is going to be some inspiring post about 2020 and how tough its been for everyone globally. I just wanted to take some time to talk I guess?
I finish my last year of university in 2021, with my dissertation now being put into the works. It is a scary thing, knowing that your dissertation means you will graduate with or without honours - the degree you've worked so hard for for 3 years. I thought university would be hard, but I didn't think it would be almost soul destroying in some aspects! I know that is dramatic, but I also know that people who are not uni students during this global pandemic of coronavirus do not understand how hard it has been. We were almost forgotten about in the Prime Minister's speeches with all the focus being on schools and colleges. Our tutors have been trying to get to grips with new online platforms so they can teach us during lockdowns and isolations. Uni graduates understand how hard it is to do uni, but they should thank their lucky stars they didn't have to do it during 2020! All that being said, I have had a really positive time at uni overall. I haven't made friends properly but I have made some mates in class which I would happily see in my own time as they are really fun and kind people, doing the same course. I have always sucked at making friends so I am not surprised there, but I am glad I have made some in-class friends. My uni campus is also a nice place to be, with the tutors all being really great and good to talk to. I have also enjoyed pretty much all my modules throughout my time there, with only a few being a bit boring.
Uni is not the only thing I have been doing. I worked for a chemist until December 2019 when it all went horribly wrong and I had to leave, which saddened me a lot. I was unemployed for ages, until the other week actually, which was weird as I have been almost continually employed since I was 16. I got a job at a Homesense store, who I have worked for before many years ago, and I had my first shift doing Christmas helping and till service. I was so pleased to find I had such an amazing time and have met some really funny and lovely people. I was also pleased I remembered so much from my previous time with the company, which made it easier for me to get into it. I am so happy to finally be working for a company where I am actually valued and the people around me are genuine and kind.
Hobby wise it has been hard to do a lot considering we have spent so long in isolations and lockdowns with places closing and being shut. I got bought my first Sylvanian house by my boyfriend Hayden for my birthday which was not expected at all. I wanted them so badly as a child but they were too expensive for my parents to justify buying it, which I agree with now I am older haha! I got given it and I have been renovating and painting them. I did the first one and then Hayden got me a second, even bigger house which I did as well. I then got a third house which was mainly because I wanted to do something during lockdown 2, so I got that and it is not done yet but I am having some ideas as to what to do with it. I also have been indulging my horror film obsession, specifically classic oldies such as A Nightmare on Elm Street, Halloween, Friday the 13th etc. They are my favourites because of the awful video quality, and I often watch what I imagine are probably pirated copies of them as they are too old to get on Netflix or anything, haha. Michael Myers is my favourite horror figure but who knows, that could change!
I lost some pets this year, which was not unsurprising as my guinea pigs are getting older now. I had 6 at my maximum but now I only have 2 - Marmite and Percy. Marmite is a runt and she has always had health problems which continue until now, so I am quite shocked she is the last girl I have left. Twiglet died not long ago, which was a great shame and I do miss seeing her a lot. She was 5 which is old but to me I always feel like old is 8 but my vets tend to disagree. My Sugar also got put down and that broke my heart. Percy is younger than Marmie as he is only 4 but he has been the healthiest pig I have had. My dog Daisy was diagnosed with cancer this year, and the tumour is getting worse but we are valuing all the time we have with her. She is on strong pain medications and is having a lot of love, attention and we are still trying to walk her everyday unless she shows she is not wanting to, as the cancer is on her leg which is causing her problems. She is a bit fat now as well, which sounds funny but I guess she is old, at 13, so we are trying to make sure she has treats and stuff but also not make her obese before she conks it, haha.
My grandad was diagnosed with cancer but he received the all clear recently, which was the best news. We have been super close since I was born, he is everything to me, so I was so relieved when he was told the cancer had been dealt with. I have had other family members told they have cancer too which has been really difficult and hard hitting for us as a family. It makes me realise that it is such an aggressive disease which can affect literally anyone, no matter how healthy you are...but I know my family members are very strong willed and healthy otherwise so I have hope.
On a lighter note, my friendship with my best friend has blossomed so much this year and I am so proud of the person she is. She has gone through so much this year and I am so inspired by her. She is a talented illustrator and now a passionate dementia carer which is so incredible. My mum has become a professional counsellor after years of slaving away at work and going to do voluntary Samaritans and counselling, which I am so proud to say I have the most understanding and caring mum out there. My dad also got promoted which is amazing and he has worked so hard all his life that he deserves that recognition. My brother has been doing uni and works for Starbucks which has been great to watch him do more adulting because in my head he is still 10 years old - honestly, it is weird sometimes. I also found Hayden which has been the biggest thing in my life, as it finally feels I have found the person I have been waiting for for so long. I had to kiss so many hideous frogs {I like frogs so I hate that saying lol} but I finally found a genuine prince {sorry I know this is cheese}. I have never been treated so amazingly and loved so much and I can't wait to continue life with him. Okay sorry I'm done you can get rid of your sick bucket...but Hayden also has been doing the best job at his work and he has started Twitch streaming which I am so proud of him for as he is so good at it, so please check it out if you can. I also have now been apart of his family for a while and I am so grateful for them and how lovely they are. I have had to spend most of my time with my own family but I am thankful that we have not had any arguments - which I feel most families do during lockdown which is understandable - and we have actually gotten closer, or at least I have, to my parents which I think sounds odd but as you get older and ready to leave home you do lose some closeness which I think is totally normal and healthy, but it is nice to have some of that back.
This is probably one of the more personal posts I have done and if I mentioned you please let me know if you want me to remove anything because I know you may not want to be talked about, but I have tried to only name certain people. Thanks for reading though. Here is to a better and covid19-free 2021.
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